My post from earlier today was a cop-out. It's easy to write about Kate because she brings such joy amidst all the chaos.
I am feeling frazzled. I feel like I am drowning in clutter that I will never catch up with. It's like the venom suit in Spiderman...you clear away a little space and it just grows right back.(My husband and older kids have been on a super hero movie kick lately!)
I don't want to feel overwhelmed. Logically, I know that caring for my large family that includes a baby and a toddler is not going to leave time for much else beyond dishes and laundry....and I'm behind on even those chores!!! Ugh!
I want to feel organized and together. I never aspire for perfection...I gave up on that years ago. I just want to stop feeling like I'm running "up" on a "down" escalator....always running full speed just to not lose ground.
If I stop, I am going to be buried by everything that is closing in around me in this house. It's just not a good feeling.