Despite how slow the winter of 2020/2021 felt, today is proof that time, indeed, has gone by. Today, my daughter-in-law, Marisa, checked into the hospital to start the process of being induced. Marisa has done phenomenally well this entire pregnancy! Shortly after the shock that they were having twins wore off, both Jon and Marisa got excited about the two wiggly boys growing inside of her.
Marisa is a guidance counselor and worked until March 1st, which gave her some much needed rest at the end of her pregnancy. Lugging two little boys around isn't easy...and the boys aren't too little, either! Her last ultrasound was Tuesday and they have both babies measuring around 6lbs 10oz! Those are good sized boys!
It still seems surreal to me that I will be holding my first two grandsons in my arm in just a couple of days! It doesn't feel like that long ago that I held Jon in my arms for the first time! My head and heart are all over the place today. I'm excited to see them, nervous for Marisa going through childbirth, and unsure about how I will feel as everything shifts and changes again in our family.
I was thinking about the twins' arrival and praying after Mass today. Of course, I was praying for an easy and uneventful labor for Marisa and for a healthy mama and two healthy babies. I was also praying that, in my new role as a Grammy, that I wouldn't be "too much" or "too little" but just enough. (Sounds a little like Goldilocks and the Three Bears. lol) I want to be supportive to Marisa and Jon. I want to be a good Grammy to these two boys. I'm just not sure exactly how that's going to look. I like planning and lists, and right now it's just a lot of waiting and unknowns. We're starting a whole new adventure, and I don't want to mess it up.
New roles=new expectations. Since it's all new, I'm still trying to figure it all out. (I'm sure I will be trying to figure it all out for a while!) Being a Grammy will be a much different pace than being a mom. I'm the support staff now. I can share my experiences of being a mom, but it will be up to Jon and Marisa to do the research and make decisions for their kids based on what they feel is best for their little family.
Different isn't bad, it's just something to get used to. Jay and I will be learning to navigate a whole new part of life....it's exciting and intimidating all at the same time.
Everyone tells me how wonderful grandchildren are because you get to enjoy them and then they go home to sleep!(or not sleep...) I think I will like that part. :)
Please say a prayer for Marisa and Jon as they welcome Ambrose and Leo into the world. There's a lot of love that will be multiplied throughout all of our families as we start a brand new chapter of our lives!
